Monday, August 11, 2008

Saturday, August 9, 2008

My gosh, it's been a while since I last posted!!! I guess I am not that chatty.....this has been the summer from h---, I don't mind saying!!! The heat is oppressive and the humidity unbearable, it has rained every day for weeks now. The sun is killing my eyes, the gardens are overgrown and muddy from the rain. Thank the Lord for air conditioning and that I don't have to use public transportation!!! Summer is just a season for me to get through, I really hate it......there, I have vented and feel better.....

On top of all that, just before the 4th of July, I had an accident.....tripped on my neighbor's sidewalk and landed on my knees on the cement.....wow, that was really something!!! Was laid up for more than a week with swelling, pain, and the most gruesome black and blues......am great friends with the ice packs now!!! I started feeling better, thought I should do some weeding in the front flower bed, can't kneel down so I bent over and strained my back........then I thought, gee, I'll squat down, that should be okay.......wrong again.....re-injured my left knee.....laid up again with ice packs on the knees and heating pad on back.......I am not in a good mood.....

It made me realize I am not as young as I used to be or as young as I think I am. I have to accept that it will take a while to heal from all of this. So, I am limited as to what I can do and have to baby myself, which is not easy for someone who works flat out and burns the midnight oil!!!! Then this week I caught a cold, how does one do that???? It has turned into a nasty event with a horrible cough and fever........then a long time dear friend passed away last week, and I had such a tearful convo with her daughter on the phone.....so sad......enough already!!!!

Yesterday, I had a glimmer of hope......I noticed a slight change in the slant of the sun.....and a difference in how the sun glistened through the leaves on my maple tree......Fall is not far behind....at last......between the 12th and 15th of the month more noticable changes will occur in the slant of the sun. I am a watcher of the changing of the seasons.......the weather, the heart, life itself.....

My creativity should return soon, if not, woe is me !!!! It has been an unusual year so far for me, marked with returning deep depressions and a lack of hope and some general malaise.....and I wonder when it will end.....

However, on a bright note.....I managed to take a load of donations to the Good Will shop......they have been gathering on a table in the garage I call the "loading platform"........even got rid of my old sewing machine, a ton of fabric, trims, clothing and florals. Now that felt good, and I look forward to cleaning out more. I am a warehouse for my children...where are they and why don't they come get their stuff????? I am also a hoarder......I have so many interests....got to get rid of this stuff!!!! How about you???? Are you overwhelmed with clutter???? How do you handle it all???? Give me some hints.......